It feels like forever since I have posted in my blog. Its been hard to find the words, to give a descriptive, informative post at times. But I will try to do so with this one.
God has been doing a lot of reshaping in me these last couple of weeks. Its been expected and at times unwelcome, but that is what happens when you tell god to do his worse.
Since the beginning of this trip God has been teaching me about Love, being on fire for god, trust, and being bold.
I spend a lot of time talking about God, resting in God, and talking about life with my pastor, my mentor, and my teacher, Robert Mponye. He is a great friend to me well I’m here.
My mind is always running a thousand miles a minute. When I sat on the bus ripping down roads covered in dirt and pot holes with the moon and some stars to help us navigate the terrain in Uganda, I remember just staring out and enjoying the view. I could see rolling mountains and grassy fields, all lit by the moon. Casting a beautiful silvery color over everything, I could see the shadows creeping around where the moon or stars couldn’t catch them. As if they were laughing because the light couldn’t reach them.
This is kind of like the devil. God will shine a light, but the enemy will try his best to hide in places and laugh because he thinks he has gotten where God can’t reach him. the problem is he forgets that the earth rotates and God isn’t happy to just stay in one place. I guess what I’m saying is, even when you sometimes feel like your stuck, away from your family, your best friends, away from everything you are happy with, when your stuck in a dark place it can be easily to lose sight of the fact that God shines even in those places.
I have had some dark days since arriving in Uganda. On that bus I finally felt safe once I was in Uganda, but I also miss my home, but I don’t mean home in the sense of the house I grow up in but rather, I miss the cold, I miss the snow, I miss the Christmas lights, laughing with family and friends, I miss my friends, and my family, I miss my girl. And sometimes the enemy gets in and this is all I can see. But then other times God reminds me why I’m here: to learn and grow. And so yes well I miss those things everyday and sometimes its harder then other times, I know that god will take care of me. I know that god is using me and is building a man in me that the world has yet to see. See I love in crazy love when he says, “there will never be another francis chan” because you know what. There will never be another Joel Peter Yager. I have one life to live and the tasks god has for my life no other human can complete. So everyday I feel like curling in a ball cuz I miss my life that is on pause for a moment, I remind myself that I’m here for the glory of god and that any task he asks me to complete I will do to his glory.
And when we surrender our lives to God you know what happens? You start to witness the unbelievable. You find your ok standing up in front of a church and bolding proclaiming that god is bringing a fresh anointing. You aren’t scared to stand up in front of 40 people, of which half are older then you, and tell them that God isn’t satisfied with Luke warm life’s and the timid. That he wants the people on fire and the ones that will be as bold as lions. When your asked twenty minutes before to take care of 80-100 kids for an hour and lead them in worship and preaching, you might joke around about it you might be a bit scared but you race home and you grab a guitar and race back to the school, look at your watch and see you have five minutes so you pull up the internet and find a song that is simple enough to teach play through it once and then you go and teach it to those kids, and you sing your lungs out and then preach.
Life really is easier when you just trust god and go with his flow.
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