life has been intense to say the least. its hard to know were to start, i would say by now most people that read by blog know that I'm planing to go to YWAM in Sept of this year, three months after getting back in canada. its true. I'm trusting god in it. it came about all of a sudden when someone suggested it and i began to look into it and fell in love within minutes, but i decided to pray as the 6 month course including flights and everything will cost me 11 thousand dollars that at the moment i don't have. SO i have been praying about it and when we were in class the other day we had this time of like breaking down barriers in our life and i have some big ones right now. and so i went up to the front because i felt a call to go up there. when i got up there god quickly spoke something i have wanted to hear for a long long time. that i DO that's right i DO hear god clearly and that as i draw even closer i will hear him even better! i was in tears snot rolling down and cascades of water running off my face. i went and sat back down and i asked god about if he wanted me to go to YWAM i hear a yes, then i asked if he wanted me to go in Sept of this year, and Again i feel i hear a yes. so i applied for the course believing god will provide the 11 thousand i need for this.
another way god also poured into this was when i was give a word by another student. Matthew 18:18, anything you bind or loose in heaven will be bound or loosed on earth. so in my books I'm going to YWAM and i have faith god will open the door.
there has been a team here from NY State and Both Lou and Mike the pastor and worship leader from the church in NY have been pouring a heck of a lot into my life which was awesome. i have also taken a bit of a break from the internet (i get on here and there) and spending some time searching gods heart on my life and where its going. the other day when i was searching gods heart he told me to look at Luke 20:23 which is when Jesus asks what portrait is on a denarius, and then says to give to Ceaser what is Ceaser's and give to god what is God's. and it was just like right away god said to me give me everything that belongs to me. so I'm working on doing that with everything. its not so easy.
yesterday (saturday) peter asked me what i was going to preach about on sunday i said nothing. and then as i was going to bed i asked God what he wanted me to preach and i was given the word Matthew 6:12, the lords prayer and specialy the part forgive us our debts as we forgive others. and at the time i didn't think it was for the church but then Pastor Mike got up and told his life story and about forgiving even when you didn't want to, and it was just like wow huge confirmation and we saw many people in the church go up for alter call to be healed of abuse, un-forgiveness, problems with there parents etc, it was incredible! i have been learning a lot about god in the last few days and well i believe i'm going towards Kona Hawaii for YWAM and more missions work from sept till march 2012, i definitely feel uncertain about were God is taking me, but i can't help and look back at 2010 and think about how god provided and showed me his will in my life and brought people around me to build me up. people i never expected would be there or that i would build relationships with. it is amazing for me to think about the fact that i have friends all over canada and the US that support me and have even sponsored me, and in Africa and Asia and Europe. regardless of what happens over the rest of my time in Africa i'm living a blessed life full of adventure and excitement!
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